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Universally acclaimed, rapturously reviewed, winner of the National Book Critics Circle Award for autobiography, and an instant New York Times bestseller, Chanel Miller's breathtaking memoir "gives readers the privilege of knowing her not just as Emily Doe, but as Chanel Miller the writer, the artist, the survivor, the fighter."—The Wrap "I opened Know My Name with the intention to bear witness to the story of a survivor. Instead, I found myself falling into the hands of one of the great writers and thinkers of our time. Chanel Miller is a philosopher, a cultural critic, a deep observer, a writer's writer, a true artist. I could not put this phenomenal book down." —Glennon Doyle, 1 New York Times bestselling author of Love Warrior and Untamed "Know My Name is a gut-punch, and in the end, somehow, also blessedly hopeful."—Washington Post She was known to the world as Emily Doe when she stunned millions with a letter. Brock Turner had been sentenced to just six months in county jail after he was found sexually assaulting her on Stanford's campus. Her victim impact statement was posted on BuzzFeed, where it instantly went viral--viewed by eleven million people within four days, it was translated globally and read on the floor of Congress; it inspired changes in California law and the recall of the judge in the case. Thousands wrote to say that she had given them the courage to share their own experiences of assault for the first time. Now she reclaims her identity to tell her story of trauma, transcendence, and the power of words. It was the perfect case, in many ways-- there were eyewitnesses, Turner ran away, physical evidence was immediately secured. But her struggles with isolation and shame during the aftermath and the trial reveal the oppression victims face in even the best-case scenarios. Her story illuminates a culture biased to protect perpetrators, indicts a criminal justice system designed to fail the most vulnerable, and, ultimately, shines with the courage required to move through suffering and live a full and beautiful life. Know My Name will forever transform the way we think about sexual assault, challenging our beliefs about what is acceptable and speaking truth to the tumultuous reality of healing. It also introduces readers to an extraordinary writer, one whose words have already changed our world. Entwining pain, resilience, and humor, this memoir will stand as a modern classic. Chosen as a BEST BOOK OF 2019 by The New York Times Book Review, The Washington Post, TIME, Elle, Glamour, Parade, Chicago Tribune, Baltimore Sun, BookRiot Read more
Listening Length : 15 hours and 24 minutes
Author : Chanel Miller
Narrator : Chanel Miller
Publication date : September 24, 2019
Language : English
Publisher : Penguin Audio
Version : Unabridged
Program Type : Audiobook
Best Sellers Rank: #454 in Audible Books & Originals (See Top 100 in Audible Books & Originals) #1 in Sexual Abuse & Harassment #1 in Sexual Assault True Crime (Audible Books & Originals) #2 in Sociology Books on Abuse
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Format: Kindle
I am a sexual assault survivor. I am also a victim. I use that word intentionally because I don’t believe there should be shame in it. Something was done to me. I didn’t report it. My rapist was my boyfriend, and when I told someone, I was told it couldn’t have been rape because I had said yes before. So Know My Name was never going to be just another memoir for me. I remember Chanel Miller’s case. I remember the coverage. I remember being furious that Brock Turner’s athleticism became part of the conversation, as though how fast he could swim had anything to do with what he had done. And I remember thinking then that a Black defendant would never have been afforded the same framing, the same concern about his potential, or the same cultural investment in everything he might lose. I also remember people saying they hoped he would be raped in prison. That made me sick then, and it makes me sick now. Because if we believe sexual assault becomes acceptable when the victim is someone we think deserves it, then we’ve created a world in which there are circumstances where rape is justified. And survivors already spend enough time wondering whether something about who we were, what we did, what we wore, what we drank, whom we loved, or what we had consented to before somehow made us deserving of what happened. It didn’t. Chanel’s story is heartbreaking because it shows how trauma doesn’t remain contained within the moment it happens. It seeps into everything. Your relationships. Your body. Your work. Your sense of safety. Your understanding of yourself. Sometimes you don’t even recognize the ways it has changed you until much later. And then we ask victims to enter a system that dissects their behavior, their memories, their choices and their credibility while simultaneously worrying about the future of the person who harmed them. There is racism in that system. There is sexism. There are biases about who we believe, who we protect, whose future matters, and what we think a “real” victim should look like. Even after #MeToo, we still blame victims. Maybe we’re better than we were. Some days I’m not sure. But Know My Name isn’t only about what was taken from Chanel Miller. There is goodness here, too. There are strangers who helped. People who believed her. People who stood beside her. Small acts of humanity in the middle of something profoundly inhumane. And ultimately, this book is a reclamation. Of her name. Of her story. Of her body. Of the right to define herself as something more than the worst thing someone else did to her. There is incredible power in being able to say: this happened to me. It changed me. It is part of my story. But it does not get to tell the whole story. Five stars. Heartbreaking, infuriating, necessary, and extraordinarily brave.
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Reviewed in the United States on August 31, 2026 by Casey Rodweller
Format: Hardcover
TRIGGER WARNING! Also, the outcome is revealed, if a reader does not yet know it: The author Chanel Miller has a beautiful ability to write, and she thoroughly describes both the effects of discovering you have been raped and the continued stress of going through the court system. Although this book is obviously not "fun" to read, I could not put it down. I marked passages as eloquent, dog-eared pages, and underlined descriptive phrases. I was appalled at the lack of information shared with Chanel, all while the press was given details they did not need. (Why is it OK to share police photos of victims in humiliating situations??) Chanel had the "advantage" of multiple witnesses to her attack, multiple witnesses to her state of mind (She was found unconscious, outside in the dirt, with a man still humping against her.) Brave witnesses caught and held that man, who was immediately arrested. She was thoroughly examined for evidence. ALL the needed evidence and witnesses were gathered. Yet...even so...the procedures and trial (drawn out over years) and the requirement to repeatedly share the details with strangers, while many of those strangers doubt your credibility and challenge your mind, seemed to cause as much of the mental and emotional damage as the original attack. Those of us who have been assaulted watched in horror to see that even the rare case with witnesses and evidence results in the person labeled victim under attack, while the known perpetrator gets excuses, and people cry at the loss of his potential. As we read this book, we sadly also feel affirmed in our choices to NOT report (at first). But then, Chanel "wins" the trial! Due to California statute technicalities (since fixed, THANK YOU CHANEL!), sexual assault charges were successful, but rape charges had been dropped. She "won." YET, the horror continued, as the system totally messed up the victim impact discovery (a phone call by someone who had not yet been involved in the case?!) In spite of this, Chanel's bravery and her gift of writing expression clearly described to the judge that she had been devastated by the convicted offender. Chanel reveals that the same judge who had just uncivilly interrupted and rushed a victim impact statement from the woman whose case was before Chanel's goes on to ignores Chanel and spends his time pitying the effect all this will have upon the CONVICT! The rapist gets 3 months in jail. Fortunately, some wise people shared Chanel's statement online, and the world opened its eyes to the injustice. Many of us read that statement with deep understanding, and her bravery changed our decision of silence. We shared her statement, and we spoke out to loved ones and friends about what had happened to us. Now Chanel shares her name and her story. It is difficult to read, but it should be required reading for everyone involved in the justice system, for every health care professional who WILL encounter abused women, for anyone who has doubts when a woman shares her story, and for any man who wants to love and care for any woman. Unfortunately, those who most need to read this book will never choose it. The book motivates me to say: Those of us who care CAN make a difference. We need to change societal norms, so that more of us will #Be the Swede. We can train our sons and daughters to look out for others and to NOT accept even the slightest predatory behavior by anyone. Brock's fraternity brothers saw how he was behaving, LONG before he assaulted Chanel. They should have stopped him. It is likely that at least several people saw Chanel stumbling about before the attack. They should have gotten her a ride home. We've made progress with designated drivers, perhaps we also need designated party sobers, too. Most of all, we simply need to take the time to listen to others and to care.
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Reviewed in the United States on September 28, 2019 by Ursie
“You took away my worth, my privacy, my energy, my time, my safety, my intimacy, my confidence, my own voice, until today.” Chanel Miller was raped on Sunday, 18 January 2015. Chanel learned what happened to her at the same time as the rest of the world. She was treated in a hospital, endured the indignity of a rape kit and spoke to a detective who believed and didn’t judge her. This sexual assault gained worldwide attention but it was Brock Turner’s name we knew; Chanel’s identity was erased. The trial resulted in guilty verdicts on three counts but, in my view, the punishment did not fit the crime; it may as well have been a slap on the wrist. I didn’t follow the story of Chanel’s sexual assault in the media. Even still, I knew the words ‘Stanford’, ‘rape’, ‘swimmer’. My introduction to this book was via a publisher’s emailed newsletter, which is how I learn about so many of the books I need to read. I wasn’t sure it was for me though, until I ugly cried my way through Chanel’s video, ‘I Am With You’. I needed to know more about this intelligent, creative woman. Still, I waited patiently for my library to purchase a copy. I made it all the way to page 23 before I finally figured out I needed my own copy, one I could highlight to my heart’s content and return to as often as I needed. I don’t know if I’m more grateful or sad that I found this book so relatable. This is Chanel Miller’s story. Author. Artist. Daughter. Sister. Friend. Girlfriend. Survivor. A woman who has experienced raped, but who is so much more. “This is an attempt to transform the hurt inside myself, to confront a past, and find a way to live with and incorporate these memories. I want to leave them behind so I can move forward. In not naming them, I finally name myself. My name is Chanel. I am a victim, I have no qualms with this word, only with the idea that it is all that I am.” Although our stories are vastly different, so much of Chanel’s story resonated with me. While I hurt for her and was furious on her behalf as I read about her experiences, I was also lifted by her strength, determination and resilience. I had trouble reading some parts, either because they reminded me too much of my own story or, oddly enough, because they didn’t. I needed to step away and distract myself with a children’s book or play with Lego at times, but my overall takeaway from this book is hope. The hope of words reaching out to me and encouraging me to hold on when difficult times find me: “You have to hold out to see how your life unfolds, because it is most likely beyond what you can imagine. It is not a question of if you will survive this, but what beautiful things await you when you do.” The hope that comes in the form of a narrative that doesn’t sugar coat what recovery from trauma looks and feels like: “As a survivor, I feel a duty to provide a realistic view of the complexity of recovery.” The hope that therapy can offer: “It feels better when the story is outside myself.” Although I don’t know Chanel I feel like I got to know her as I read her story; this is a woman I would want to be friends with. I loved being introduced to Chanel’s family and friends, and want to personally thank every single person who has supported, encouraged and validated her. My heart grew several sizes as I read about professionals who exuded empathy and compassion. Sure, there were others I wanted to slap, but the ones who went above and beyond reminded me that there are people out there who can soften the blow when trauma finds you. Chanel truly is a writer. She can paint a scene so vivid that I felt I was inside it. She took me on an emotional journey with her; I may have felt it more because I was revisiting my own at the same time but I think I would have felt the highs and lows regardless. I want to recommend this book to everyone, but especially to those whose professions bring them into contact with victims of sexual assault, whose responses can either provide validation or add to the trauma. “This book does not have a happy ending. The happy part is there is no ending, because I’ll always find a way to keep going.” If I were Chanel I don’t think I would ever want to read another word written about me. I’m just so proud of her though. Chanel, if you ever read this, please know that I believe you and I am with you. Although I’ve never attempted anything like what Chanel has accomplished here I have needed to write statements that include the details of sexual assault and know how impossible it can feel both to find the right words and to revisit memories with sharp edges. Chanel has done an incredible job and I’m really look forward to reading whatever she writes in the future. Content warnings are included in my Goodreads review.
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Reviewed in the United States on November 21, 2019 by Schizanthus Nerd
Format: Kindle
First the one thing that bothered me: I repurchased this book after lending the first and not getting it back. I don’t mind so much that they kept it but I do hate that when I bought the book again the cover has a New York times bestseller “sticker” (for it is not a sticker it is printed on the cover to look like a sticker) and shortened cover to expose another New York Times bestseller advertisement. Adore the book so much I bought it again, but I do despise the New York Times Bestseller mutilation of the cover. I dearly hope to see more books from Chanel on whatever topic she chooses. Her style feels like, genre and topic aside, a bit like Christopher Moore- full of little honest, human moments of self reflection. Her writing skill is inarguable, she brings you with her on her journey. It does not feel like a documentary or a tragic play or even a story written to shock you into action. She writes so genuinely it feels like you are standing next to her as these years played out experiencing it in the same step as she did; and just being with her in her story you'll feel tragedy, shock, action. The content is emotionally hard, and there is no way it could be anything else. You feel yourself getting hopeful and then feel your hope crushed as its taken away. The aftermath of shock, struggling with PTSD while a court case prods into every tiny fallible action you may have taken, the disappointment in the institutions when the case closes and still you are left unsupported. So many feelings and fears Chanel described in this book rang true for me and almost a decade after needing to read this, I finally don't feel alone. I have never remembered an author's name so easily as with this book and I hope Chanel Miller continues to write and create because she absolutely has the spirit and the skill for it.
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Reviewed in the United States on July 22, 2020 by Emma
Format: Kindle
Rereading this book written nearly a decade ago reminds readers, especially women of how far we still need to go especially as we witness the incidents at Cornell unfold. Is there any wonder why women who have been assaulted are reluctant to come forward knowing that if they do, they will be vilified, threatened, doubted, criticized, blamed, and deplored? In Chanel’s case TWO witnesses saw, and then yelled, and pursued the perpetrator of a rape, a student behind a dumpster violating a nearly unconscious woman. Eye witnesses, forensic evidence, and corroborating details would seem to have delivered a guilty verdict. And after years long preparation and eventual trial, guilty verdict was delivered, a unanimous verdict. However, a judge (who has since been unseated), delivered a sentence of three months. Three months could never compensate for the years of anguish of residual nightmares, trauma, and pain inflicted on Chanel and her family. Three months seems to negate the seriousness of the offense. It seems to equate the rape as a dismissive minor matter, requiring the slap on a wrist as if this were a matter of litter offense. And so Chanel delivered a truth, a statement, providing a voice for so many others, for all those too afraid to step forth, all those walking wounded. Chanel gave voice, a megaphone to the injustices, the double standards and painful injustice pervasive in society and law. She witness some progress only to witness a nation elect a man who trivialized grabbing female anatomy as president. She would witness a senate committee verbally assault, insult, attack, and shame a respected professor who testified during a Supreme Court judicial appointment hearing. She would witness the attacks on female candidates that no male candidate would ever face. However, Chanel Miller would and has preserved bringing changes across universities, throughout legal systems, and among communities. Her writing is honest, almost clinically detailed exacting in places. However, it is also a powerfully presented recounting of events from her awakening on an examination table through and beyond a trial. She is a light of truth and fortitude.
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Reviewed in the United States on October 2, 2026 by sharon f. leff
Format: Hardcover
Deep breath. When I first saw the article stating- Survivor in Brock Turner Case Reveals Her Name in New Memoir- I said “holy f*ck” out loud. I clicked the article and I had preordered the book before going back to finish it. When the day of release arrived, I was outside on the curb, smoking a cigarette. I looked up and saw the UPS truck on the other side of the parking lot. I chased it down, refusing to miss the delivery. I went inside and began the journey of reading this. Never before have I wished for the ability to reach through time and space to embrace someone. I settled for being curled up on my couch, tears running down my face, clutching the book like a life preserver. When I reached the last page, I didn’t want it to be over. It felt like a much needed conversation with a best friend. I don’t know how to put into words the necessity of this book. It needs to be required reading in classrooms across the globe. For the first time in a long time, I feel hopeful. I could not have asked for this book to come at a better time. As I approach the 4 year mark of my own sexual assault (October 9), I was crumbling. I felt like it was fresh- I was back to not sleeping, crying on the curb chain smoking cigarettes hoping they would help calm me down. Crawling into bed with my limbs aching at 3am. For this reason, I am so thankful for Chanel’s honesty surrounding the rollercoaster of recovery. My narrative changed, and I was no longer chastising myself for feeling emotions this deeply 4 years later. This downward spiral and subsequent ascent has all unfolded in the past 10 days. The breaking point for me was seeing the ignorant words of someone close. It made me wonder, is there someone out there thinking my offender was too attractive to choose me as a victim? Was my story not believed, simply because it has been so long without me talking about it? All this time, while I’ve been crying and doubting my own experience, have I really been attacking his reputation by events that “could not be proven by facts”?. Would I be viewed as a false accuser, who should be put in front of a jury? Am I delusional? If I see my offender running for public office in 30 years, will I be accused of running a political smear campaign if I choose to speak out? Writing all of this is terrifying to me. While I have often alluded to the trauma of being raped, I don’t think I’ve ever talked about it publicly like this. I know that it is shame that has kept my mouth closed all these years. I cannot continue to live in it, because I want the next 20 year old woman to know there is no shame in what someone else has done to you. That shame is for them to carry, not you. If Chanel can write over 300 pages, I can write a damn comment. If you’ve read this far, my advice to you is to rethink your opinions. Listen to your words before they leave your mouth, or rather, before they leave your fingers. You never know who is reading those messages. I think of the people that spoke with Chanel about the case, not knowing she was Emily Doe. We have ALL spoken to Emily Doe’s in our life, whether we realize it or not. I wonder, what messages have these survivors left the conversation with? To wrap this up, thank you Chanel Miller for being the lighthouse that finally gave this lost sailboat a glimmer of light. You are strong, brave beyond words. Your book is a game changer. Thank you for giving me a voice. Thank you for validating my pain, for letting me know it’s okay if sometimes I need to curl up and cry. I’ll tie my 100th shoe and get back up. Thank you.
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Reviewed in the United States on September 28, 2019 by Gabbie Fabish
Format: Hardcover
As a sexual assault survivor who was raped and going thru the court system at the same time as Chanel, the Brock Turner rape case was inextricably tied to the ups and downs of my own recovery. I was her and she was me as the court system churned and slowly tortured us both. To be able to read her statement and see it gain global attention helped me immensely to put words to what I had experienced. Now I got to preorder her book, know her name, and support her. I read this book in about seven hours. It was like walking back thru the last 4 years of my own recovery in an alternate universe—Chanel’s universe. I found everything she said so grounding in its honesty. It was never unnecessarily graphic or gruesome for cheap shock value, but a rich and complex prose of how it is to be a woman and lose any girlish notions of safety or naïveté when sexual violence occurs. This is as accurate a portrait of survivorship as one can find and there are millions of portraits just like her walking around you everyday as 1 in 5 women experience sexual violence. Chanel is unique and beautiful and yet not unique as millions identify with her experiences. Please read and support this critical and multilayered analysis of her experience as she ties it to her childhood all the way thru several current political events of today. My boyfriend supported me for wherever I needed to be emotionally while reading this book, sleeping on the couch to stay in the room with me til almost 4am when I was done. He knows I am a sexual abuse survivor and now he can read this book and the weight of trying to describe on my own what that’s like is lighter because Chanel has sacrificed yet again. Lastly, I want to say this book was very healing for my sense of self esteem. It’s hard to explain why but hearing ways she has reclaimed herself thru the endless war with herself as a victim mirrors my fight also. Her validation journey helps me access more firmly my own validation. I cried more happy healing tears than sad tears. I will never forget this book.
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Reviewed in the United States on September 26, 2019 by Elizabeth Warren
Format: Kindle
This is such an incredible book that for the first time ever, I wish I could give a book six stars because five isn’t sufficient. Or downgrade all the other ratings I've ever given and say, "No, this one. This is the actual five star book." No other book has ever made me feel so intensely so empathize so completely with my entire being. It infuriated me, empowered me, made me want to clutch the book to my chest and sob for the injustices that victims of sexual assault are made to suffer again and again while our systems, society, and culture protect those who do the assaulting. I wish I could make everyone read this beautiful, luminous, powerful book. It should be required reading for every high school student in the US. It should be required reading for every human being on the planet. Know My Name is Chanel Miller's memoir about the night she was sexually assaulted behind a dumpster while attending a fraternity party at Stanford, about waking up in the hospital to medical staff and police telling her only fragments of the hours missing from her memory, about learning how to live her life in the aftermath while the subsequent investigation and trial dragged on for years, about reliving the worst moment of her life while her rapist’s friends, family, and defense team launched assault after assault on her character and her decisions, about fighting to bring about institutional change in the way Stanford handles campus assault. This is a book about trauma, shame, healing, survival, rape culture, class privilege, and what it’s like to be a woman. In one part of the book, she says that the man who assaulted her will be known as "swimmer turned rapist" while she will be known as "the victim who wrote a book". Chanel Miller is a brilliant, thoughtful, funny, incandescent human being who has so much strength and compassion and humanity. She is quite possibly one of the most gifted writers of this generation. What happened to her doesn't define her. She doesn't need anyone's pity. She's going to achieve tremendous, magnificent things with her unforgettable voice, and I feel very lucky that I'm going to get to see it as it happens.
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Reviewed in the United States on July 13, 2021 by Christine Liu